KaylaDawn01

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 02:06:07 GMT

Woah i havent written in here in a while like a long ass time....well not much really has happened
I have changed alot i dont really give a fuck what people think anymore...its a new year which means a new me and im forgetting about the past cuz that motherfucker sucks.

I made some new friends...got ride of some losers...pretty THRILLED about that
My new friend is Nichole Clarke...
This chick is the balls man
She is like the truest friend i have she is just awesome
she is nothing like the old loser friends i use to have and thats what i love about her
She actually calls when she says she is gonna call
Im not embarrassed to tell her anything really PS were both complete cheeze balls but thats ok
We hang out alot and i love it AND my fav thing is that when she cant hang out when we have plans because something came up SHE CALLS ME and lets me know LOVE HER!!!

But other then that school rocks this past year flew by...umm Jeff is like moving out in less then 4 months pretty fucking excited no more kristina shoved up my ass (hope she see this)

But i think im out im so fucking tired and i have school i wanna snow day GOD DAMMIT!!!

Ill update this bad boy more often...

<3 Dinger X0X0X

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 00:30:01 GMT

LET'S SEE.....First my life is back to normal i got the best fucking friends in the world and dont know what the hell i was thinking...next i went to the football game and saw cali dana rissa sadie amanda felecia tirza abby susie sara emily kristin and some other people who i could care less about but anyways we kicked some ass i was standing behind the football players haha loved the view!!lol Then i saw "him" he is so cute and isnt pressuring me into dating him he was gonna ask me out last night but i want to take things slow and i think its so cute that he respects me for that so who knows whats gonna happen...i gave kristina a cold so now jeff and her cant hang out cuz he doesnt want to get sick so i feel bad but its so funny when she is on the phone she sounds like a 3 year old haha...tomorrow i have to work ugh pain in the ass but whatever i get to work with kari kristina jeff sadie chloe becky and all them love em to death but anyways school is goin good classes are goin good not to hard not to easy but i think im gonna play softball take my anger out on the ball..lol but ill write later goin out with some peoples in a few love my crew ugh gonna have me some FUN bitches

loves DinGer XoXo

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 19:14:53 GMT

I dont know what to do anymore i apologized...sooo many times and you ask me to give you time! how long will it take cuz im not gonna sit around waiting for an answer if your saying shit its not worth it but it really is you both were really good friends to me and i shit all over you I AM SORRY what more do you want from me i dont know what else to do....im sick of feeling sad and crying because i miss talking to you or having you around im not gonna do it AGAIN! i wont i cant i lied yea but i confessed and i dont want you to forgive me that would be to easy and way to like simple..i just want another chance i know its gonna take a while to build your trust in me again but i willing to work on it if you are but i dont know anymore...

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 13:41:28 GMT

today is my birthday...i should be happy and not caring but im not happy and i do care..i care about what i did to certain people and i care that some people arent in my life right now it sucks to know that you hurt people and that some of them hurt you but you still love them like sisters or like the family that some of them were to you....i wish they knew just how sorry i was or knew how much them not being around hurts not having a influence like them around...no one to talk to..no one to cry on there shoulder...no where to go to escape from your own house..or just some where to go...i am sorry and i deserve a chance to tell them that...but who knows

Birthday girl kayla

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 01:10:16 GMT

well today was fun doosh bag (reels) woke me up and we wnet shopping for school supplies!! it was the shit right there man and then we hung out talked about random shit and then she chilled at my house for a few but im bored and writing like 5 paragraphs in this thing is gay so

Dinger

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 01:01:57 GMT

ok i managed to work up the guts to tell this guy how i truly feel about him and umm surprisingly he was nice about it and told me i was ok....WHO does that? but whatever then he sent me a half naked pic of him...DAMN is all i have to say

later

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 20:19:00 GMT

Well at this point i dont know whats gonna happen...it cant get any worse so all it can do is get better.

Tomorrow should be fun i get to go and hang out with reels and spend the night that should be fun!

me and baker are back from MIA and im happy we worked everything out!

TTYL

Dinger

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 02:51:18 GMT

Like you dont know how much i just like miss you...i miss being able to call you at like 3 in the morning and talking or just staying on the phone with eachother till we fell asleep...i miss seeing you every other weekend or whenever your mom let you fly up...i miss being able to talk to you about everything and anything! when my life was shitty you were there and let me cry and i didnt have to feel ashamed...why did you have to go i really dont see why you had to leave that night like that...it sucks to cuz now whenever i wanna hear you i call your cell phone just to hear your voice mail and to hear you say i love you to me...and now your never there to pick up...i never got to say bye its so unfair...but now no matter where i go i see you everywhere when the sun shines im happy cuz its like your not gone your there with me your everything that makes me believe im not alone i just wish i could of said goodbye or i loved you more then you could ever know one last time....

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 21:43:25 GMT

i use to think that if you pushed hard enough or you changed for the good of something the thing you chnaged for would change to but its all lies....

well i didnt go to bed till like 4 cuz i was up crying all night its sucks knowning the truth i wish i had someone i could talk to without feeling like im complaining or me feel that they're getting sick of me and think im annoying...it sucks having no one by your side.

well i woke up at 9:30 and took a shower cuz me jeff kristina my mom and my dad all went school shopping! so much fun i went to get my sneakers. i bought two pairs there awesome! Then i went to the concord mall and saw reels. then i went to charlotte russe and saw reels, she was stalking me i swear fucking sketch ball. then i went to go eat at wendy's i havent really been eating that much cuz im just not hungry... so much shit all i do is piss and moan and im annoy so my brother tells me so im staying out of peoples way and not talking to anyone!

i just wish things were back to normal i had my dad in my life my best friend back be able to see my sister and had the guy i want in my life to want to be with me but thats never gonna happen i seriously have fucked my life up beyond my control to fix it it sucks but thanks to the people that actualy listen to me when i need to talk you guys rock!

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 22:07:01 GMT

I wanna just thank two people who mean a lot to me and they are reels and erin you guys are awesome i love you both!

Erin- with that thing with jake you were there telling me he is a ass and not to feel bad and i dont know...im gonna miss working with you my little chocolate kreme filled donut! If you need anything dont be a retard just IM me or call me!!

(REELZY POO!) Reels- haha umm wow we got really close really fast and your just one of a kind and i love you so much your the best! even throught the baker shit and i didnt believe you you didnt care you didnt push me or tell me what or who to believe or hang out with! And your like my best friend it might sound weird cuz we havent really known eachother that long but i feel like i have known you for years..its crazyy but its thr truth... but i hope were friends for a long time your cool shit and ugh its so much fun telling people who i hang out with haha love yah *muah*- kay

BAKES- i dont know what happened between us but i just cant deal with all the lies and excuses anymore im sorry i tried and its just a waste of time thinking your gonna change... i either have to except you for who you are even tho i dont believe that thats the real you or let you go and i choose to leave you alone...i hate it cuz im not the type to turn my back on a friend but im not turning my back im letting you have space and im looking towards making mine and reels frinedship the shit... i put everything i had in to ours but you just shit on me all the time! and so im sick of it so im leaving you alone. i hate myseelf for caring to much cuz i saw that our friendship was goin down the shit hole and now its in there and about to be flused.. you can change it but i dont think you will! im sorry i cant fix everything but i tried but im sorry i have to move on with my own life...

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 22:55:32 GMT

OK my life is awesome!! me and jake broke up but i think its for the best...i just didnt like him more then a friend it was a mistake i dont regret it but i wish it never happened because i dont wanna hurt him..but im over it ANYWAYS...me and reels hung out today it was soo much fun! first we went to dunkin donuts to get some breakfast..then we wnet to her house! OMG i didnt know we had mansions in plymouth it was so nice. he dog skippy is a pain in the ass but cute..lol but then she brought me home and met my mom likes her thinks she is goregous, and she thinks me hanging out with her will do me good cuz she already says im to mature for my age she swears a im a 18 year old stuck in a 15 year olds body which is fucked up but ok! lol but i had so much fun hope we hang out again and loosen up if you know what i mean...*wink*wink*drink*drink* haha its all good well i dont know whats goin on with baker and everything its weird im mad but im not literally its fucked up! i dont know what or who to believe cuz its just so confusing i think i know who i believe but im not sure cuz some of my friends like to play head games and fuck with my trust and emotions and its pisses the person i believe off! Reels dont be upset or mad or anything your right...but i cant turn my back on baker she has been my friend for to long and im not that type of friend to turn away from a friend in need.. youll soon learn that..lol but i hate being in the middle i dont see why people care who or why i talk to people or become friends with them but whatever people think there cool fucking with people and there feelings and they really are fucking with peoples lives its not cool its dirty and low and they should be shot! lol or something but i dont know

~Dinger

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 16:46:41 GMT

today im sick and i feel like crap.it sucks because im missing work and i need the money and OH my mom is making me stay in bed ALL day and i hate staying in place. but im so tired i deserve to lay around but i guess ill start on my summer reading a few or at least read more.

peace Dinger

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 17:12:52 GMT

this is sad jess AHHHH putting shit like that in your info gettin the dinger cryin...whats wrong with you??? SUPPORT THE HOOVER DAM PEE OFTEN love yah jess

Girl: Slow down a little I'm scared
Guy: No this is so much fun
Girl: No it's not Please, its 2 scary
Guy: Then tell me that you love me
Girl:Fine.I love u now can u slow down
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug
Girl: *gives him a big hug.*
Guy:can u take my helmet off & put it on It's bugging me while Im driving
The next day there was a story in the newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed in2 the side of a building because the brakes were shot. There were 2 ppl on that motorcycle, but only 1 had survived.
Halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes were broken, but he didn't want 2 let the girl kno or else she wuld have been scared.
Instead, he had her say she loved him 1 last time & felt her hug 1 last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she wuld live even tho it meant that he wuld die.

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 00:32:07 GMT

its the first time that kayla dawn dinger has ever felt this lonely wish someone could cure this pain, its funny how you think its gonna work out but it slaps you in the face. i finally figured your all the same always coming up with some kinda story. you dont let anyone get close to see the real you and it makes me so mad and sad and i feel a bunch of different feelings at once. i thought you might get the point when i started to ignore you, and have the descence to change, but you never got that message. cant you see that you lie to yourself and that you cant see the world through a mirror. but once its all said and done ill be there to pick you up one again. because of you i dont know who i am anymore and i like the feeling of the unknown im not scared anymore. no matter what happens it wont be to late for you.

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 01:30:41 GMT

my life is coming together and i love it

i love everyone of my friends and i hope they all know im here for them no matter what

just dont stabb me with a piece of glass..*cough cough*

LOVES~ DInger

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 20:49:39 GMT

went to work and is wasnt really that busy but it sucked anyways cuz i was on headset all day and thats gay but scott got fired haha thats sucks to.but i dont know things are fine besides that i got some poor suckers attention but who knows im actually happy but work is really streeing me out and then the summer reading getting that done is gonna suck but i have to do it. well im gonna go and eat dinner with the fam.

hope everyone is enjoying there summer

loves- the one and only Dinger (well not the one and only but the cute one at least) LOL

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 00:55:12 GMT

sorry i havent typed that much on my entries but so much has been goin on so here we go....

yesterday- 7/12

i went kayaking with kristina jeff david and david's dad dave. it was so much fun first we went to dave's camp and went around the pond for little to get use to it..its such a work out on your legs arms and everything. after that we got bored so we went swimming then dave brought us to this river/stream thing which leads to the newfound lake it was so funny the scenery was like we were in the middle of a jungle it was so cool it was dead quiet and you know me i cant stand the silence so i cracked a joke i look back at jeff and kristina and they were like what im like "oh nothing just waiting for a giant andaconda to come eat my ass"! haha they started laughing.then kristina feel on her ass gettin into the kayak OMG it was funny sheis ok tho.

today- 7/13

jeff me dave and david went to maine and went to see portland head light house nubble light house and bug light light house they're beautiful.then we went swimming and i got sunburn on my face but its not to bad thank god i hate sunburn. At portland head we had a picnic and it was nice there was a nice ocean breeze and its was FABULOUS! haha

tomorrow me jeff kristina david and i think kristin and her brother we all are goin to funspot haha they aint ready for us!!!

peace out Dinger xoxox

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 22:01:01 GMT

went kayaking today and now im at dave's house cuz me jeff and my little brother are goin to maine in the morning well i have to go eat but ill write later

peave out DInger xoxoxox

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 02:24:59 GMT

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i fucking hate my friend (s)!!!!!! i do some much for some of them and they shit back on me and im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo DONE!!! trying ot be a good friend

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 18:27:12 GMT

well today i DID NOT want to move my big old ass out of bed...i was so tired!!! Kristin's party rocked ofcourse cuz me a smo were there..lolno but i got out of work at like 1:00 and jeff is supose to come pick me up but i so doubt it cuz he forgets that he has a sister because he has a gf!! ugh hate it so much but he was supose to pick me up at 1:30 and it is now 2:30 and i have called kristina's cell 2 times and no one has picked up...so i think someone forgot about me or someone is FINALLY gettin a piece of ass WHICH IS SO GROSS!!! so ill write later got nothing else to do prolly call nikki and see what she is doin!

peace Dinger xoxo

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 16:46:01 GMT

well today i woke up at 12 something and eat breakfast and watched surviving christmas its was outrageously funny!! now im goin to take a shower because today is kristin's birthday party she is turning 17 WOO HOO!!! OH and one of my guy friends confessed his undying love for me to this morning so im pretty surprised and happy i still have what it takes ot attract some fine looking guys..lol

peace Dinger xoxox

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 20:58:37 GMT

so today i woke up and i didnt feel good at all..i was sore and couldnt move at all and then my stomach was killing me and i got sick...EWWW but i slept all day and so here i am telling you this haha i have nothing else to do so but ill write again soon

peace Dinger xoxo

so cofused

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 01:55:31 GMT

why is it you give someone all your trust and they always mistreat it but you dont care you love them anyways? OH i know because you actally believe that if you let it slide enough that they'll realize how much them not being around or them blowing you off is hurting you and their friendship with you but i have come to realize that that person isnt gonna change..... i dont know what to do everyone is telling me to stop being her friend cuz she doesnt treat me the way a friend deserves to be treated but i cant its not that easy

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 19:55:17 GMT

this morning i woke up and MB BB me and BUBBA went ot fun spot and mac donalds and i ate so fucking much ugh i feel fat...lol then we went to wall mart and walked around and had a perfum fight and now i smell like a french whore so i got to go shower haha cant wait to see how the rest of my day goes hope everyone is having a awesome summer LOVE YAHS

peace Dinger xoxox

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 00:21:35 GMT

well lets see last night i had a talk with my bud about some serious shit that has happened to me and the past couple days and it really has helped me thanks bakes your a sucha good person i hope you get and find that "good relationship" you deserve so much. and jack thanks for being honest with me about you and everything your a great guy and should be happy...

today woke up at like 11 because i went to bed at like 5 thanks RB retard i hate you...lol i got up took a shower and then jeff asked if i wanted to go to wally world so i did and then after that i called bakes and we went out to eat at mac donalds.. HOLLY FUCKING SHIT this girl can eat she had to fish foilet things a large fry a soda an apple pie and a bunch of other shit it was insane.

thne tonight my bud cam eover and then i went to wally world with kristin then we went to see bakes at work and i got some PEANUT BUTTER fudge OMFG it so good go there a get some the new holderness general store GO NOW!!! now im home gonna go work off all the food i ate today hahah...only if you guys knew..

peace Dinger xoxox (halle berry love you beyonce)